f*aianqla igykla ;nd osú kid.;a ;reKhd
fm%aufhka mrdch ù l,lsÍug
m;a ;reKfhl= ish f*aianqla .sKqfï igykla ;nd f., je,,d ishosú kidf.k we;’ Tyq
r;akmqr m%foaYfha mosxÑ úismia yeúßos pu,a ,,Skaø kï ;ju;a cd;sl õhdmdr
l<ukdldß;aj wdh;kfha bf.kqu ,nk isiqfjls’ ish w;a;ïudf.a u<f.or oS ÿgq ;reKshl yd fm%au
iïnkaO;djhla f.dvk.d .ekSug fkdyels jQ fyhska Tyq fufia ish osú kidf.k we;’
Tyqg jhi 15 isgu ishosú ydks lsÍug úáka úg W;aidy ord we;sw;r ta iEu wjia:djloSu
tajd id¾:l ù fkdue;’ wú wdhqO ms,sn| oeä Wkkaÿjla olajk Tyq ñhf.dia ;snqfkao wuq;=u
wdldrfha we÷ula we|f.kh’ Tyq ;enQ igyk my;ska n,kak
isxy, mßj¾;kh
uu jhi 15 oS .Õg mkskak
yeÿjd’’ ;sfrdIa whshd udj fírd.;a;d’’’’ udi follg l,ska ji ñ,s ,Sgr 40 la
tkak;a lr.ekSug yeÿjd’’’ t;a id¾:l Wfka keye’’ ta yskaod ji ñ,s ,Sgr 200 la
ìõjd’’’ t;a urefka keye’’’ kuq;a wo uu t,af,khs yokafka’ miq.sh ojia lSmfha uu
b;d i;=áka ysáfha’ iqrx.kdúhla uf.a Ôú;hg wdj’ uf.a wjreÿ 25 l jevlg ke;s
ld,fha fyd|u ld,hhs ta’’ uu oek.;a;d thd ud;a tlal ioygu bkafka keye lsh,d’ ug
Thdg wdorh lrkak ´k Wfka Thdj uq<sk wfma w;a;dïuf.a u, f.oroS ÿgqjg miafia’ kuq;a
Thd ta ldf,a f.dvdla nd,hs’’ ug Thdf.a fidfydhqrd ;ud jvd jeo.;a Wfka ta ldf,a’’
uu n,ka ysáhd’’ miqj oek.;a;d uu mud jeä nj’ f.dvla m%udohs’ Thdg Thdf.a Ôjk
iylrejd iu. i;=áka bkak ,efíjd lsh, m%d¾:kd lrkjd’ uf.a yqiau fmdo bjrfjklkau
uu Thdg wdof¾ lrkjd’’’ uf.a wd;auh wmdfha ofjklkau uu Thdg wdorh lrkjd’ fï we÷u
;uhs uu oeka we|ka bkafka’ uu tal we|ka u uefrkjd’ wka;sfï tl me;=ula bIaG Wkd’
Tyq ;enQ igyk
When I was 15
tried to jump in to a river.Got dragged by Thirosh ayya. 2 months ago tried to
inject 40ml of poison to my hears. Injection only pierce the outer layer of the
heart. It burned like hell. So drank 200ml of the poison. Didn't died.
Now today. Going
to hang my self. I was very happy for past few days. An angle came in to my
life and had some awesome and best times of my miserable 25 years of life.
Knowing she's
not gonna be with me forever. I had to take this path to preserve the leftovers
from this beautiful week. I just want to that I started to love you the day I
saw you in my grand mothers funeral.
But you were
very young back hen and your brother was much important to me. I waited and
found out that I'm already late. Too late. Hope you'll live a happy life with
your soul mate.
Till my heart
give up and my breath stops, Know this I'm gonna love you. I'll love you while
my soul burns in HELL. (This is the dress I'm wearing now. I'm gonna die in it.
Finally one dream became true)
fuhg fmr Tyq fu,afia
f*aianqla cdhdrEmh fjkia fldg ishosúydks lsÍug W;aidy l, wjia:dfõ Tyqf.a
fidfydhqrd thg m%;spdr olajd ;snqfka fuf,isks’
